||[Oct. 25th, 2008|10:39 pm]
there are only so many things that make me really really happy, like waking up to a nice cool weekend morning to which i smell the delightful aroma of a sizzling breakfast. or maybe, staying up to see that bright yellow-orange sunrise that brings me all too perfect delight. its he simple things really, the simple things that happen everyday that make me happy. suuuure the material things keep me going too, i mean, who wouldnt want to play rockband 2 or try out that new ride at an amusement park that you were just dying to go to. but those are just, iunno soooo temporary.
but those kind of things i can enjoy when im alone, there are certain things, that can only make me happy when i share them with some other people, or if i get really lucky, with someONE else.
lucky, a word that ive been all too familiar with lately, a word which since the start of the term break, just, describes me COMPLETELY.
yep, term break. thats when it all got to be just, soooo, fucking.......fucking......haha....awesome.
it started with simple hellos, and how are yous
then came the i miss yous and the i wish i were theres.
well you know what comes next.
the way that this all came together was just all to perfect to conceive.
perfect in the sense that iunno, all the right words were said/unsaid
and all the mistakes that had to be made were there. i just cant tell you how perfect it all came together, and no, it definetly wasnt no fairy tale, it wasnt some helloimprincecharmingpleasebemyprincess sort of thing.
AND THANK GOD IT WASNT.
fairy tale relationships are for pussies. im sorry, but its true, they just dont last. haha
but with you, fairy tales are shit. just. shit.
its totally different with you, it started exactly the way it should and yet just somehow ended up to be something sooooo frikking great that it can only be described as puuure luck. Well, at least on my part it was.
starting out as friends was the best thing that couldve ever happened, i swear. helping each other out on things personal matters that seemed all too painful to handle alone, giving advice (or whatever you call it) to one another without the intention of hinting anything even close flirting...welll maybe not that far from it. but from then on, baby, it was all a downhill slope to awesomeness.
suuure there was that 1 month and 2 week slump that i'd rather not talk about because its just way to insignificant to do so anyway, but forget about that.
lets just stick with us.
so it got to the point where, yeah, you knew how i felt, and you being the girl that you are, always kept her feelings things to herself. haha that was totally fine. it got me pretty curious, but it was fine. haha
from then on,
5 second looks from across the classroom became 10 minute stares face to face.
high fives in the hall, now fingers laced in the elevator.
hugs in the class, now secret kisses behind posts.
its all to fucking sweeeet to be real right?
suure there are those times when i know that you just want to destroy me completely for some shit i did.
i can tell you now, i've had my worst times this year with YOU.
but i dont regret, ONE. SINGLE. SECOND.
like i said, this is just all too perfect, all those times that i made you cry, got you dissapointed in me, got you angry, everything. i dont i ever take them back, even if i had the chance, because all of those define just how perfect this is.
how exact this is.
its EXACTLY what i want. do you kknow how that is? the feeling of finding exactly what you want right in front of you?
to know what it is, to find a single, solid representation of everything that you desire? I DO..
GODDAMN RIGHT I DO.
and the single solid thing is you, your and infectious smile, your sweet sweet voice, that insanely gorgeous face of yours, EVERY SINGLE FUCKING THING. hahahaha
and now, i just cant get enough of you, everyday its something new, could be some new fight, some new discovery about one another, some new testament proving how perfect this is. everyday it gets better and everyday is just one MORE day of pure bliss.
i can't even believe im composing something like this for everyone to see, its just thaaatt awesome now, just soo right and complete that there really isnt much else that i could ask for. cause you've given me everything and more, and all i can do is be cliche, plain and simple, it goes to show just how awesome you are. in every single way. is insane really, just how far i've had to go just to get here, to get to you.
so now were here,
you and me standing on a whole new world together.
Spell love with an H.